Do you know what it's like...

Do you know what it’s like…

To be the center of ridicule

To be called ugly

To be ignored

To be laughed at

To be judged

Do you know what’s it like…

To have people avoid sitting with you on the school bus

To have boys shout “ewww” when you walk by

To have girls snicker when you try to get by them

Do you know what it’s like…

To be called pregnant because you’re overweight

To be laughed at when you fall down the stairs

To always be picked last, and sometimes, never picked at all

Do you know what it’s like…

To be afraid to go to school because you don’t want to be seen

To be afraid to talk to people because you don’t want to be judged

To constantly try to hide so you can avoid hurtful words

Do you know what it’s like…

To not be able to make true friends

To have to bribe people with kindness and selfless acts to hang out with you

To have those same people stand in the background and join in the laughter when you get picked on

Do you know what it’s like…

To have parents who never understood why you are so reserved

To have parents think there’s something wrong with you when you wouldn’t talk

To have parents get frustrated with you when you try to explain how you feel because they think you’re just being weak

Do you know what it’s like…

To be bombarded with so many negative words and hurtful comments that you don’t think you deserve anything more than that

To expect everyone you meet to think you are the ugliest, fattest, most socially awkward person they have ever met

To believe you are the most worthless person alive

To believe you will never meet someone who will find you beautiful

To believe your life is worth nothing

Do you know what it’s like…

To wish every day when you wake up that you were not alive

To wish that you could have the courage to finally get in that car and turn it on and close the garage

To constantly think about slicing your skin with razor blades because the pain is a release

Do you know what it’s like…

To be so afraid of what people think of you that you have to pretend to be normal

To be so afraid to let people see who you really are because who you really are has only ever been criticized

To have to think before reacting because you need to make sure you don’t seem weird

Do you know what’ it’s like…

To have memories that are so painful you can’t help but cry every time you remember

To want to forget so much that you binge eat because you think that will make you happy when it only makes you feel worse

Do you know what it’s like…

To have gotten so used to being hurt your whole life that you don’t even feel anything anymore

To never know anymore what you really feel

To be empty inside

Do you know what it’s like…

To have everyday be a struggle

To feel like life is a battle that you lose more each day

To be scared that one day you actually will end it all because everyday is harder than the last day

You don’t know what I have been through. You don’t know what thoughts run through my mind, what memories I have. You don’t understand. Think twice before you judge me and assume why I feel the way I do, do the things I do, and am the way I am. 




Rav